YET ANOTHER LOVE STORY....

When i was young, there were times when. i would close my eyes, take a deep breathe and hold it... wishing that everything around me would come to a standstill.Wishing I could change some things around me.
I could never hold my breath long enough!

7am-bath and breakfast,
7.30am-3pm _ college,
3.30 to 6.30 _ sleeping,
6.30 to 9.30 _ studying!,
9.30 - dinner,
11- sleeping!!

This was my daily routine before.... before i was introduced to some fascinating things called INTERNET and ONLINE CHATTING.

INTERNET- The place where I met her for the first time!
INTERNET- The thing which amazingly changed my routine time table to :-

12am - 12pm - 12am (24 hrs) __ Waiting for her message!

Well, let me give a clear picture. After meeting her online and chatting with her for a long time, i felt like sheš the one! she has got to do something in my life atleast! May be sheš my lucky star. May be she can do miracles in my life and all. But SHUT UP! sheš just an online friend and i have never met her before. I dont even know everything about her properly! Sheš just a good online friend and thatš it! But, If so, then why does she always come in my dreams? Why does she always make me smile for no reasons? Is it a crush or an attraction or is it the most special 4 lettered word,- LOVE?? Come on! Stop misunderstanding and exaggerating a most common situation! Millions of people meet online daily. Millions of people become friends online daily. If all of ēm started to think like this, then a thousand people find their love every second! Stop thinkin shit! Hmmm.. May be i should not think about her like that. After all i havent met her even once! I haven't even seen her pic once! Only i have uploaded my pic and she has seen me. She gave me her cell no. finally. :) So 'll be always chatting in mobile itself and stopped coming online. I always used to inform her in the cell wherever i am going, coz who knows, I might meet her by a co incidence.!
I started expressing my feelings finally. Even though i had not seen her, i told that i love her! Crazy! Like a hero, i told her that i 'll love her no matter how her physical appearance is, and i love her coz of her character and all. And she accepted it! Oh, finally i have got my soulmate. If she chats so nicely, obviously she'll be good looking and I'll enjoy my life to the core if she's with me!
But whenever i asked her to meet me, she used to give some reasons and all, and as a result we never met for some 8 months or so. At that time, i had picturized her in my mind itself, and reached such an extent that I couldn't spend a single hour without her messages! Stupid cellphones! They're the main reason for 70% of the teens to fall in love.
Suddenly one day, she told me that she is in my college and wanted to meet me! Wow! I started to get nervous. What will I talk with her when we meet? Thank god there is a rose shop in front of our college. I took a bouquet of flowers and started walking towards the parking lot, where she told she was waiting. How come there were soo many good looking gals in our college suddenly? I saw hundreds of cute gals on my way suddenly! Where were these gals till today? May be its a good sign. They were like angels directly from the heaven. Finally I came to the parking lot. To meet the girl of my destiny? What will the destiny have for me in its bag? I'll know about it in a few seconds. There she was. A gal sitting all alone in the parking lot. She has to be the one. She had long hairs and wearing a salwar. Hmm.. well-cultured, i thought. I called her name. She turned around.....
God!! How could you do this to me?? She was completely opposite to whatever I had imagined. No, this can't happen. I wanted a good lookin gal. I can't live my whole life with this gal, who was looking like a total stranger to me. Was she really the one with whom i had shared all my feelings? Can't be. Somewhere deep inside me, an alarm was ringing, telling me to behave nicely. But i ignored it! She gave me a smile, for which i replied sarcastically. I asked her why she came there. She started telling that finally she got a chance to meet the prince of her dreams and all. But who listens to her anymore? I showed that bouquet and said that someone has proposed me and gave me that bouquet and i accepted it, and i can't continue anything with her. Told her that whatever had happened was meaningless since we never met and asked her to stay as a friend only if she wants and left. May be there were a few drops of tears in her eyes. But come on! Be realistic. Think practically. It was impossible to continue a relationship with her. Some of those sitting angels were disappointed in me as i realized on my way back. One among them was damn cute.Have I seen her somewhere before? seems like a deja vu! I gave a smile to her, but she just gave a stare as if i am the villain of a good old hindi movie! So I became a single again... and ready to mingle!


After 3-4 years..............


Gradually I had stopped messaging her. She was just a nobody in my life now. Still i somehow was missing her, regretting what all i did with her. Should I really love someone again? Am i qualified to love again, after somehow cheating her? Or did I really love her some 3-4 years ago? Is that what people call as love? If not, then I still don't know what love is. I already got placed in a very good IT company, which gives me a pretty fair amount of money as my income. So, I'm almost settled in my life, except that there is no LOVE in my life. Wish I could meet her again. However she might be to look at, she had really understood me. Do I still have a chance to correct my mistakes by apologizing to her? Is there a chance for me to hook up with her again? I should've never judged her by her appearance. The biggest mistake i had ever committed........
Suddenly on 13th feb, I got a message from her, asking me to meet her again in the same spot! Wow! That was something which really made me happy after a very long time. I even started to dance alone! God finally listened to me it seems. So, I shouldn't spoil it this time. Then I prepared a small speech of very deep and touching apologizes. That too she asked me to meet on the valentine's day this time! Definitely it has got to do something. May be she came to know that I'm regretting a lot. After all, she was the first gal to have really understood me.
Then I purchased a very romantic card for her and wrote my own little poem for her. May be she'll like it. Finally I went to my good old college, now full of pretty juniors. But parking lot was empty this time, except for a gal, damn cute. Have I seen her somewhere before? Seems like a deja vu....! I called her name. That ugly gal, whom i left was nowhere to be found. This cute gal stood up instead! And she was also having a card in her hand. The alarm suddenly started ringing deep inside me. My brain started remembering things suddenly. This gal.... was the one, who was sitting there when I was speaking to the ugly gal. This gal... was the one, who stared at me sarcastically when i gave a smile to her. This gal.... was the one, who was also in the theater when i went to a movie 3-4 years ago... She was also there when I had gone out to roam around the city so many times, 3-4 years ago! But i never observed it.. that she was observing me! Before i spoke to the ugly gal... After that incident, I had never seen her. It means.... A big jigsaw puzzle, when put together started to give me the facts that this cute gal was..... the one..... who was supposed to be my soulmate! She was.. the actual one and that ugly gal was a fake one! God! What's all this? I can't think about anything anymore. What happened to me? She was judging me during that time, sitting there, testing whether my love was real. But I failed in it completely. But right now, what was she doing here with a card in her hand? Do i still have a chance? I wanted to give the romantic card to her, but no words were coming out of my mouth. I was totally speechless. She spoke to me for the first time... Just summarized everything in 2 sentences.. "You never understood me. You never knew the meaning of love". May be I saw a small droplet of tear from her eyes, without realizing a few more drops flowing out of my own eyes! She gave that card to me and left, never turning around. She can't leave me like this in the middle of everything, while I started to discover the truth just now. Who knows whats there in her card? May be she wants to surprise me by giving this card and she might be waiting near the gate for me? A card on the valentine's day means there has to be something!
I opened the card finally.
It was ........ her WEDDING CARD.

When i was young, there were times when. i would close my eyes, take a deep breathe and hold it... wishing that everything around me would come to a standstill.Wishing I could change some things around me.
I could never hold my breath long enough!